The Weight of Self-Sabotage
A big deal with this whole self-sabotage concept is that I’ve recognized I’ve caused quite a bit of damage and hurt a lot of people I love and who loved me. And ultimately, that’s what hurts the most. It’s not the self-sabotage itself; it’s the damage I’ve left behind.
This is a recurring theme for me, and it’s one of the hardest things to wrap my head around, even if I can’t fully reconcile it yet. After all, how would anyone cause so much hurt to those they claim to love?
Facing the Truth
However, I realized a little while ago that I need to forgive myself, a challenge I’m starting to tackle. I must say sorry to as many people as I can, and I’ve begun that process, as I’ve mentioned.
But just as crucial, if I don’t forgive myself, I’ll stay stuck disliking who I am for a long time. I have to learn to forgive myself, move forward, and commit to being better.
The Path to Self-Forgiveness
I’ve said before that I need to improve, and a huge part of that is to forgive myself for all the damage I’ve caused. If I can’t forgive myself, if I don’t address this, I’ll struggle to find happiness within me.
If I don’t learn to love and like myself, I’ll find it hard to love others fully. That journey starts when I forgive myself and begin to embrace who I am.
Learning to Love Myself
I want to dislike myself less, like myself more, and ultimately, love who I am. Right now, I don’t. I really don’t. So, my mission is to be okay with me, to dig deeper into who I am, and to forgive myself consistently. When I forgive myself, I can learn to like myself and, eventually, love what I am, because that’s where true peace begins.
